Long post alert. But awesome photos to follow by the incredible duo @rissandstevenphotography.
So we moved into our new casita two weeks ago, and we are deep into the demolition process. Ahhh. I would be straight up lying to you if I said this whole demolition phase didn't bother me. I can't tell you how many times I've had to re-clean our bedrooms and bathroom from all the dust coming through the vents. It's a bit much. And kudos to those that love DIY's and home improvement stuff because I don't have the capacity for it.
I feel like I've gotten out of one chaotic situation (living with my mother-in-law) and into another (our home).
I've learned a lot about myself in the last four months though, and I'm going to break it out into bullet points because that's just how my brain processes stuff:
Gloria's Self Reflections:
1. I want to be everything to everyone: I wouldn't say I'm a people pleaser, but I've been noticing my shortcoming a little more when it comes to relationships and I'm wondering why it's such a big deal to me. I have always been the type to want to be everyones BFF. Even if I don't know someone very well, I still want them to feel safe with me and know that I follow through with what I say. I don't think there's anything wrong with that, and I'll keep being that way, but something's off because it's affecting my own personal goals. I can't be the perfect wife, daughter, daughter-in-law, real estate agent, volunteer, sales associate, leader, and friend. And I won't even come close if I'm not taking care of my mental state of mind. I've noticed I'm getting close to empty, and I need to hit the brakes and do some personal digging. Someone told me once: for everything you say 'Yes' to, you are also saying 'No' to many other things. Regardless of my efforts, people are either going to like me or they're not; and I think a lot of that is outside my control anyways.
2. Living with family is never easy: Man oh man, isn't this true! I've learned that I do not like being told what to do (Can anyone relate? Haha!) My methods for washing dishes, recycling (there's more to this that I'm not sharing but lets just say it was a battle between me and the other woman), to cooking and cleaning, can be a trigger for contention. It was for the last three months. Anyway, Matt and I have asked ourselves, if we had known if it was going to be this difficult, would we have moved in with family. And the answer is no. We are eternally grateful to our friends that have housed us, fed us, and allowed us to vent with no judgment. We love you guys XOXO.
3. 6 years into married life and it's work: When Matt and I were engaged, our pre-marital counselor shared this analogy with us, hopefully it makes sense to you too... When you're first dating someone new, you don't see all their faults upfront, you just feel all these feelings and you're totally smitten and happy. It's like wearing foggy glasses. You can't see everything. When the fogginess goes away, thennn you notice their shortcomings like: chewing with your mouth open, or not emptying the bathroom trash can, etc. Matt and I are learning that we have to work hard at staying in love with each other. Love doesn't just die, or you "fall" out of love. The hard truth is, you either give up on your relationship out of laziness/selfishness, or you work really damn hard at keeping the passion alive. I can't tell you the amount of times Matt and I have gone out to dinner and it ended with us fighting. Being in a relationship is hard work, but it's worth it. He and I are better together. Don't read this and think, oh yikes, their marriage is in trouble. In fact, it's quite the opposite. These last few months have challenged us in the best way, and we're a lot closer and very much on the same page because of it. We want to be the best version of ourselves for each other. And that's a huge win in our book. I love you Matt White.
4. Help! I'm bad at time management: Where do I start with this.. I SUCK at it. I used to think people were just naturally gifted at organizing, but really it's just that they've worked at being that way. I've tried OneNote, paper calendars/notebooks, etc. but nothing seems to work. Gloria needs to get better at this ASAP. If you feel like you've conquered this area in your life, and feel comfortable sharing, please message me. I'd love to learn.
5. Seek inspiration: I share this because I feel like I'm hitting a wall with my content and blog and I need to push myself to try new things and share my life even when I'm feeling down and out. I genuinely love blogging and sharing my life. I love that I can go on here and just post what I want to post. But I've noticed it stops when I'm stressed out, and I don't want that to be the case. I want to post more consistently, and I want to be comfortable with writing even when my world feels like a hot mess. I'm giving you a heads up that you'll probably be seeing more sappy emo posts from me, because my life isn't always rainbows and butterflies. Also, if you're up for exploring Greater Phoenix with me, let me know. :)
ANYWAY! I don't know where I'm going with all of this, other then to say that I'm doing great in the face of adversity and hard work. My days are looking pretty different on this side of the world, and I'm excited. I'm excited for 2018 and all the hard work I'm going to put into it.
As bright as your future can be, don't expect to see later what you will not sow now.
Okay, here are some funny ones.. Just so you know, I'm not a "heights" kind of girl.
Matt's face, hahah.
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